school has been in session now for about 6-7 months. a lot has happened. grad life is busy, busy, busy (and also because it’s art school, you’re never truly away from assignments or projects). my work, to me, felt that it has improved; it’s become more formally grounded, there’s more logic and rationale behind the design, and there’s more conceptual connections.
however, school and all it brings (professional critique & stunningly talented and skilled undergrads) also has really fostered an insecurity and doubt that was present before but more subdued. now, it’s rampant! i recently had a talk with one of my instructors and he conveyed his concern about my ability to visually express all the critical thinking and conceptual thought i’m capable of (needed for my thesis development next semester); in comparison to my peers, i do lack the formal training and thus my foundations of design aesthetic is very simple and straightforward (which never used to be a bad thing). since this conversation, the doubt has tripled when i’m trying to produce work. it’s both worrisome because i feel like nothing is good enough or pushed far enough and slightly amazing because i am seeing myself push my own limits and thoughts (visually it’s a small push, mentally i feel like i’m tackling concrete blocks).
in any case, i just wanted to share this experience and feeling. to other designers/artists: does the doubt ever go away? how can we lessen that insecurity? what roadblocks have you faced and how have you overcome them?