so i spent my summer after finishing grad school in an internship. it was pretty awesome. the work—not all the time, but overall, pretty satisfying because of the people i was with and the goals of the projects. good people—people you can connect with, especially in work, is hard to come by. and even while i knew this, i eventually left this wonderful studio where i had an amazing boss (who i am lucky enough to consider a friend and mentor) to join a very promising start up.
this was a difficult decision. this startup is in an industry i know almost nothing about. why, then, you’d ask did they hire me? i think my unique perspective to being an outsider—someone who DOESN’T have the immense passion for that specific industry lends a critical eye for a key demographic—those who are complete beginners. it means that i’ll ask questions that they won’t realize need answering. at the same time, this week (my first with this new company) has been immensely difficult. i am not happy, but i am not unhappy—it’s a weird sensation to have.
the people are nice and welcoming—of that i am grateful. but most of the time, i feel stupid. like EPICALLY idiotic. i know very little about the topics they discuss (ETFs, SSDS, TLH, VTI, etc—if you know these terms, you now know what industry i’ve wandered into). there’s a benefit to being an in-house designer: you have a lot of say. you are involved with ALL of the departments (at least at this place). you have real sway and can see the effects of your designs and work in real time. you can CHANGE these things for the better! and, it’s unfortunate, that i have to remind myself of these different things to keep me going when i feel so lost among the conversation at my office. it’s also unfortunate that the commute is INSANE.
we all know this: we never realize how good we have it until it’s gone. at the same time, i’m trying to pay my dues and get the experience i need to become a well-rounded and experienced professional in this industry (not finance per se, but design). i really hope this particular big leap works out—most other scary leaps i’ve taken have lead me toward more fruitful endeavors. (i also hope i can eventually rejoin the company i interned with down the road—amazing people i’d love to work with again). thanks for letting me vent…